I’m having a lot of trouble lately regulating my blood sugar – I get hot dizzy spells every couple of hours, which reminds me I need some more. How do I sort this out? I can’t very well sit there munching on sweets all day. Despite Ryan’s blanket hatred for any kind of starch when trying to lose weight, I’m pretty sure keeping complex carbs in my diet is the best choice. However, having leftovers for lunch, as I’m doing to save money (I have nowhere near as much as I should thanks to a couple of lean months), is not conducive to this. Nor is trying to cut back on portion sizes, as it tends not to be the meat or veg which gets axed.
Whether I figure this out or not, I do need to get looked at again, as I’ve noticed more pain than expected whenever I bump into something, which happens a lot – I am the clumsiest person I know, by a long way, and always have been. It used to be about a second of pain and gone – I would quite literally forget all about it and then wonder where the bruise/scratch/cut had come from several days later. Nowadays, I’m debilitated for several seconds, and then it takes ages to fade away. There does seem to be an upside though – I feel a lot more pain, but there are a lot fewer bruises/scratches/cuts. Helpful when I ding my leg every time I climb onto my bed as there isn’t room to walk around. Less helpful when I accidentally brush against the door frame and can’t continue because it feels like it’s getting cut off.
Then there’s my hearing. I’m not sure whether I need to get it checked by a specialist or if the doctor can do it, but either way when I have to ask my five-year-old to look directly at me when speaking it’s time to give in. I’ve already abandoned earphones in hopes of an improvement, but I actually feel deafer than I did before.
Another complaint is that contact lenses seem to have lost the fight with my eyeballs – I’ve been wearing them for eleven years now and only twelve months ago did I become unable to wear them for the whole thirty days. My eyes get drier faster, and the picture the optician took was pretty scary at my last check. They keep calling me back at six-month intervals, and it used to annoy me, but now I’m seriously considering going for glasses full-time.
Add to this with the advent of colder weather a general flight of blood from my extremities and the accompanying nerve tingling, along with the ever-more frequent shaking of my fingers. Not happy.
Finally, there’s my continued loss of cognitive function. I used to be able to pick things up quickly and remember details with ease, and some of the drop in that can be attributed to no longer being a teenager, but the rest can’t. I find it incredibly difficult to revise concepts I used to know well – such as earlier this week when I tried to do some differentiation and couldn’t follow at all. It’s increasingly difficult to remember what my other half has said to me, which is at best irritating and at worst hurtful. I can’t just chalk everything up to blonde moments, not when I’m headachey and dizzy from the flu-like thing that brought me down last week.
I’m beginning to get a bit scared.